cepat!

saya xda masa nk stud esok..sy kena studi skang..walaupon otak pikir menda laen..setel wat nota dulu..chaiyok2..amalya..:)

manusia useles

xtahu ape masalah aku...duk buang masa...merended2...berangan..entah ape yg xpuas hati pon xtau...pastuh duk cari mangsa lepas perasaan..memg kesian sapa dapat aku..mesti hari2 sakit jiwa..semoga Allah beri yg terbaik pada orang itu..

xguna

bodoh betol.....ada masa studi xnak studi..aku neh memg manusia xreti bersykur..menggatal je pandai..dasar manusia xsedar diuntung..kalo sapa2 yg duk ngn ko..mesti xingin jadi kawan ko..sebb pemalas sgt...benci tahap gaban kat ko..benci

no time

saya da xada masa..dia plak nak pergi jauh dari saya pada masa yg sangat2 penting....entah lahhh...saya xtau nak rasa apa...i just cant let him go..and i just keep being a litttle bit dissapointed with him..i have no heart to tell him..there s no point..but i need him to know bout my pain..but i couldnt tell him..it hurt me so much..why i am depending on him..i need to stop depending n him..but without him..i become useles like in matric time...i hate that life..i dun wana go back to that time..i am miserable..ALLAH help me..i am sorry...i am sorry

aku kena study..nak sukses, kena ada tekad, kemahuan dan fokus..maslahnye aku xada satu pon dalam list senarai neh..its really make me tertekan..

tangisan di hati

kenapa mesti bersedih di hati..menyakitkan..kalau kekasih saya vampire..dia boley ada setiap masa untuk saya..dia xkan rasa letih..xperlukan kereta atau duit..dia boley datang bila2 masa saja dia nak..tapi jadi vampire xmnjanjikan perasaan dia xberubah..mungkin dia akan mencari wanita yg lebih baik..hurmm

me

sem neh agak pelik..tapi sebenarnya normal jek..aku agak sambil lewa..even pada masa2 crucial..i am alone even i need sumone in my life..sumone that i can call bestfriends..i hat e myself..why i am bein daydreaming person..i hate my life too..i dunno why..i know many people who are very unlucky..i just hope i can change myself to be a better person..i couldnt write more..it too tired.no mood

theres little thing

hai sayang!...sy tau awak akan baca gak nanti entry neh..hehe..sy cuma nak bagitau yg saya rindu sgt2 kat awak..hehe..awak da makan?sape masak?mesti mak awak yg masak kan..xkan awak plak..awak tuh reti masak berger je...tuh pon jang banjir..kih3..hehe..awak jaga diri elok2 tau..jgn cepat marah dan serabut2..nanti cepat tua cepat sakit..sy xmo awak sakit..nanti sy sedey..kalo awak sakit..sape nk jaga saya kan..hehehehe..sayang awak..cuk3...meh nk kiss pipi...heheh..nanti..ada masa kita jalan2 eh..sy tau awak letih..xcukup rehat..huhuuhu...jg lupe makan ubat lau xlarat tau..jgn touching2 ngn ur mommy tau..erm sebnarnye banyak menda sy nak bagitau..tapi xtau nape bila ada kat blog xtau nk tulis ape..maybe sebab xde skill menulis kot... mcm nk jawab exam..heheheh.. xtau nk tulis ape...ermmm...huwaaaaaaaa..syg ayang...;(

u need to be strong

so that nobody will get hurt..especially ur love one..everything happen theres a reason..and as HIS slaves..i accept it..its my fault though..i need to responsible with that..ermm..

renungan bersama

Ada 3 Hal dalam hidup yang tidak
pernah pasti :
1. Kekayaan
2. Kejayaan
3. Mimpi.

Ada 3 Hal yang membentuk watak
seseorang :
1. Komitmen
2. Ketulusan
3. Kerja keras.

Ada 3 Hal yang membuat kita
sukses :
1. Tekad
2. Kemahuan
3. Fokus.

Ada 3 Hal yang tidak pernah kita
tahu :
1. Rezeki
2. Umur
3. Jodoh.

TAPI, ada 3 Hal dalam hidup yang
PASTI, iaitu :
1. Tua
2. Sakit
3. Kematian.

sori

sori for being childish..i just hate live without you..please stop this pain..i can get through it anymore...my heart beating so fast like i wana die..;(

sumtimes

Sometimes i get this urge to talk to you, and then i remember you’re a different person now, it’s just sad because i miss you… Alot.

sumtimes

Sometimes, it’s not the person that you miss so much, it’s the times you’ve spent with them and the memories that will never happen again. They are still in your life, and you can still spend time with them, but life is still changing, and it won’t be quite the same as it was before. And that’s the WORST feeling in the world. To feel like you’re losing somebody that you spent so much time with, and never thought twice about live without him everyday

i miss u

I miss you. No, let me correct that, I miss the old you. I miss the old you that always with me everyday..

,,,

I miss our conversations. I miss how we used to talk every minute of everyday and how I was able to tell you everything that was on my mind when we go out

..

I’ve been thinking of you a lot lately…and I absolutely fucking hate it.

..

I miss the feelings you used to give me.

sembang lebat!

menyampah..kau igt kau da banyak pengalaman kau hebat lah..semua mausia kat bumi neh mesti ade je perangai yg annoying tuh kan..xkire la dorang tuh bodoh ke cerdik ke cantik ke xbrape nk cantik ke, tua ke muda ke, baik or jahat, innocent or expert..they just have stupid anooying side which call EGO..kau nak cakap kau tuh hebat la sebab ko da expert macam2 mnda..helo..lau ko tuh pandai skali pon xsemestinye ko ley cakap ape yg kau nak..boley x kalau ko duduk diam n dengar je ape aku nk cakap..neh x belom apa2 da sembur aku..aku telepon nk bgtau masalh aku..bukan nak dengar ur perfect tazkirah ntah hape2 tuh..ko xcakap pon aku da tau la..seolah2 nak cakap yang..manusia xboley idop tanpa makan.wat the fish?? wahat big deal?daripada cakap menda yg orang da tau,,,better u just keep listening duh

sumtimes

sumtimes u just need to shut your mouth..n just observe it..no matter how truth is your words..it never changes the reality and solve the problem

terasa..

kadang2 aku ase hubungan aku x macam dulu..normal ke..aku ase dye da xdapat ase keikhlasan aku..makin dye kenal aku..mcam nilai aku d mata dye makin rendah..mungkis sesetengah yg dye nmpk tuh betol..tapi xsemua!..bila aku mengadu yg aku xde duit, bukan bermaksud yg dye yg habeskan duit aku..seolah2 mcm ape yg aku nk bagi tau xsampy kat dye..dye mula silap paham,..aku pon cepat naek darah n terasa..sumenye macam xberjalan dengan lancar..hurmmm knapa..

xnak!

aku tanak studi..aku malas studi..aku tau bahana nye nanti..macam exam tadi la..hahahhaha....kosong kot paper aku..lantak kau la..aku da malas nak pikir..lau stress..ley kurus ckit..tayah nak herbalife shake da..kah4

secret open

The truth...when she act like..She doesn't care about you anymore, that's when she needs you the MOST... but she dunno how to explain it ; /

benci

benci sgt kat diri sendiri..sy xdapat berjuang untuk diri saya pon..jadi..mana mungkin saya boley berjuang untuk orang lain..eaxam tadi da macam orang gila..sy xdapat jawab soalan yg senang tuh..nak berhadapan ngan kawan pon xmampu..sy benci semua! sy nak balik sabah..saya nak kawan2 saya balik..walau pon dorang bukanlah sahabat terbaik..tapi saya ada kehidupan yg tenang d sana..tanpa ase sakit jiwa kat sini macam nak mati..mcam orang gila..macam orang xade arah tuju..saya rindukan ibubapa saya..adik saya..blik saya..walaupon slalu gado..at least sy ade jugak orang nak bercakao..mereka ada dengan saya..saya benci hak milik saya orang amik!!!! pulangkan hak milik saya!!!!   > :(

xberguna!

saya memang xberguna..xhabes2 menuyusahkan orang dan diri sendiri..sy da xde semangat nak idop..saya letuh sangat..letuh untuk idop sendiri..ase tanak wujud kat muka bumi ini..da kering da air mata neh..da benc da tgk air mata neh kuar.......benci...

hati

saya cba untuk kosisten..tapi hati neh terlalu rapuh..meronta2 rindukan awak..saya cuba untuk xigtkan awak..tapi saya xmampu....pathetic nye saya......tiba2 ase mara kat diri sendiri sebab buat ayang sedih ngan i..i minx maap...diluah mati mak..ditelan mati bapak..apa yg saya patot buat..sy sedey tadi sebab midterm xdapat buat..sy xstudi pon untuk midterm..sy ase cam nak mati jek dalam kelas tadi..tapi saya takot mati..sy xtau nk buat ape..ase cam xnak jawab exam je tadi..ase x berguna :(

wahai blog tercinta..

sayang blog neh..sebab blog neh, aku boley tulis ape je yg aku nak tanpa perlu consider blog neh busy ke, rimas ngn aku ke, tertekan ngan aku, aku menyusahkan blog neh ke..xde..blog neh akan sentiasa ada untuk aku bila aku sedey, nak naik gile, xde mood, ilang pedoman, jiwa bergelora..dan macam2 lah..blog neh akan setia mendengar coretan aku..lagi satu..aku xperlu berebot2 dengan orang lain blog neh..sebab blog neh kepunyaan aku sorang je..aku xperlu nk pikir sal orang lain..nak ikut giliran masing2 ke..nak bersabar ke, nak bertoleransi ke..nak bersopan ke ape ke..xpayah!!  im just being myself here..i love u blog ;")..thanks for alway here when i really2 desperately need smeone ;").. thanks sebab hanya ada untuk saya..thanks sebab jadi hak milik saya seorang..jujurnya..saya benci berkongsi menda yang saya suka.,nasib blog neh xde mak bapak kan..senang ckit nak berborak2 manja ngan blog..x perlu nk susah2 pikir sal orang laen..hihihihihi

sebenarnye..

rupa2nye..dye xtau pon ape yg aku ase..aku je sakit jiwa sorang2 je..hhahaah..memg laki neh xley nk agak perassan pompuan lau berjauhan..dyo ok je,,aku je K.O separuh nak mati kat sini..alamat bile aku masuk wad psikiatri baru dye tau keadaan aku kot..xpe la..wad pskiatri pon jadila..at least ada gak orang jaga aku dari aku duk sorang kat sini..hahahah

syg tapi derita

syg sangat..tapi kalau syg sgt..nanti jadi racun..racun yang melemahkn jiwa dan semangat..jadi apa harus dibuat?lupakan seketika syg tuh..tapi kalau la senang nak buat seperti senangnya bercakap..hahahaha...mulut memang pandai berkata2..hanya masa yang menentukn segalanya..moga aku dapat yg terbaek..

aku

aku skarang neh bukan macam orang laen..aku xsama macam kawan2 aku da..knapa dye x pahan da mengerti..setelah ape yg da berlaku..idop da xsama macam dulu..nak minx dye tolong paham pon xguna..siapalah aku neh..;(

kau hal kau..aku hal aku

just do our own job..dun waste ur time..but i dun care..i just live my life..and do what i want..especially something pleasant..live for once..live fullest..without any worry..forget people who make u sad..just do what u want..:)

bosn

bosan..fed up..malas nak g kelas..serabut kpala hotak..ade kau kesah??lantak kau la...hahahahahah

mimpi

semalam aku mimpi..aku mimpi apis datang lawat aku sebab dye rindu dekat aku..macam dulu2..asal rindu je..dye mesti ada depan mata,,kadang2 xharap pon dye datang..tapi dye datang jugak..katanye rindu..:)..pastu teman dye makan kat pokok tui..pekerja kat situ pon da kenal kitorang..makan favorit pon dorang da ingt..hehe..tapi bila bangun2..dye xde pon..patot la..mimpi upenye..

..

kesedihan..

di saat neh..aku sgt memerlukan seseorang di sisi aku untuk aku bagitau aku..yg aku kena kuat, aku xboley lemah..aku boley buat semua tuh..tapi aku nak ada satu tgn yang boley pegang aku n comfortkan aku..supaay aku xterjatuh dalam kealpaan sendiri..dan terkapai2 dalam bayangan sendiri.. dan aku takkan sunyi walaupon aku xde sape2 dgn orang sekeliling..tapi nampaknya harapan hanya tinggak harapan..dan hanya bayang2 aku sahaja yg menemani setiap masa.

nak tido

banyak menda nak cita..tapi aku ase baek aku tido je..tido adalah pengubat segalanya..syukur masih diberi nikmat tidor,ada katil dan batal empuk dan kesenangan hingga hari..hargai masa yang ada..hargai masa sekarang..sekurang2 nya kau masih bernafas dan idop secara normal macam orang laing..demand more? put ur effort more to gain life u want..may god bless me n all my beloved peoples..:)..

you

besnye bercuti bersama dye..hepi sgt..tapi hepi sgt jugak bermaksud..yang aku akan bersedih jugak..;(
if we are married..i will always stay with him..being his wife..wake up in the morning and the first thing i saw when open my eyes is him my lovely treasure and precious husband..hafis irzuan..:D being mother of his lovely and cute childrens..prepare breakfast for him before he get work..get a kiss from him before and after he get wotk..;')..owh..if they were true..live happily with person i love..:(..can i achieve that dream..can i..bcos rite now..all i think is him...nothing else..im hurt so much..it is so hard to adapt my new situation.. i try not to think about it..but it seem did not work out properly..:(..but what's more painful is i cant tell him whats on my mind rite now..bcos he is surely not hepi if he knows that im not in a good condition rite now..i only will make him sad and disappointed with him..previouly i oredi make him pressure with my irritating behaviour..;(..i did not want to make him worry about me..i just wanna full attention from him..thats all i need in my life..how demand i am rite....am i too much..?? may we can become a husband wife forever till heaven  ;')..AMINNN..i miss u sayang..;')..i miss u so much...i miss u..i miss u..i  miss u..i miss u till death...miss u.....

helpless me

tahun 4 merupakan tahun yang susah bagi aku..susah bagi ak maksudnya..aku idop skang neh tanpa dia di sisi..sume salah aku sebab xkasi dye sambung master..aku sedey sgt..dulu boley dikatakan ari2 aku jumpa dye..tapi skang neh..seminggu skali..aku tau aku neh mengada2,aku patot bersyukur sebab masih boley jumpa dye hingga ari ini..tapi idop aku sunyi..aku ase down sgt2 setiap kali kami nak berpisah..seperti sebahagian dari diri aku pergi bersamanya..terase jiwa sgt kosong..aku xberdaya nak wat ape2 keje tanpa dia di sisi..dye seperti cengkerang aku,..tempat aku bergantung idop..aku wat ape2 aje mesti dia ada..time aku malas..dye yang kalut suh aku studi..time aku susah..dia la yg banyak tolong aku..time aku sedey dia pujuk aku sampy bermati2 matian..lau aku ilang semangat..dia akan kuatkan aku smpy aku bangkit...tapi skang..aku xley berharap seperti dulu yg dia ada untuk aku..sume kerja kena wat sendiri..bila da bersendiri neh..baru aku tau betapa lumpuhnya aku tanpa dia..aku xmampu buat apa2 tanpa dia..betapa dia adalah matahri aku..;(.. kadang bila aku perlukan dia n dia xada..aku ase nak marah sgt..tapi aku xtau nak marah kat sape..lepas tuh sume kerja x terhandle..everything become worse..my attitude, my behaviour, my emotion, myself.. my hearts sure ly miss him badly..im scared of future..what circumstance i will face..;(..im scared of myself too..

HAK ALLAH

Rasulullah saw bersabda :

Barangsiapa yang bangun di pagi hari dan hanya DUNIA yg di fikirkannya, sehingga seolah-olah ia tidak melihat Hak Allah dalam dirinya, maka Allah akan menanamkan 4 macam penyakit padanya:

1. KEBINGUNGAN yang tiada putus-putusnya.
2. KESIBUKAN yang tidak pernah jelas akhirnya.
3. KEPERLUAN yang tidak pernah merasa dipenuhi.
4. KHAYALAN yang tidak berujung wujudnya.

[Hadis Riwayat Muslim]

be content with ur self and stop being lost! :)

Be content with yourself. Love yourself for the person you are, no matter if you are lonely. The world has room for a diversity of personalities.
Put some fun into your life by going to games at school, walking through a park, checking out a museum, and so on. However, try reaching out by doing fun things with another person or group rather than doing them alone. What interests or hobbies do you have that could be done with others? Check out the local clubs to see if one would interest you.
Stop being so lost in thoughts, instead look around and see what's happening. Notice people and the environment,live in the moment, and stop worrying about being lonely.
Make some friends, one at a time. You can start by saying hi to a person in school or wherever else you find people, and the next day you make a conversation. Do this with several people over a period of time. Learn and use their name after meeting someone.
Think more about others and not so much about yourself. This is often tough to do, but extending your interest to other people will help channel your thoughts away from your loneliness.
Volunteer. Look for areas where you could help an individual or a group after school or during other free time. By helping others, you will keep busy and get your mind off yourself. Plus, by being with others, you are able to establish friendships.

Understand that you just can't stop feeling lonely, if you think you are lonely.

Understand that you just can't stop feeling lonely, if you think you are lonely. Try to fill the thoughts of loneliness with moments of togetherness. If possible, think back to pleasant times when you were not lonely. If you don't have any happy memories, try to imagine a realistic situation in which you would not be lonely. Then establish what it would take to create this situation in your present life.

lalala

arini malas betol nk wt asgmen..hurm..dulu ade gak pencetus semangat..tapi skang si dia jauh..lau x mesti setiap masa duk membebel suh aku study n watkan asgmen..pastuh kejot pagi2 p kelas..rindunye tyme tuh..hiks~~
tapi tu dulu..hurm..skang neh sume menda kena wat sendiri..tapi xpe la..arap2 sume neh hanya setaon je..huhuhuhu

kesedihan di petang hari

terasa lega meluahkan perasaan di blog..ada orang cakap jangan meluahkan perasaan di blog..tapi saya rasa lebih lega..hehehhe..kelegaan adlah satu perasaan rahmat yang diberi Tuhan..saya kena manghargainye selalu..sebab bukan slalu dye datang kepada saya..sama macam pelangi saya..

hari ini..

hari ini saya ada kelas pagi pukul 8..tapi sy xada mood nk pegi..sebab semalam sy tunggu pelangi sy kol saya..tapi dye bz sangat..saya cubabuat2 xtahu..malas nak layan sangat perasaan yg tah hape2 neh..tapi bila saya cuba lelapkan mata..ingatan saya ada pada dia..sy berdoa agar saya xterpikir kan sgt dye..yela tuh..hurm..saya try pasang radio kuat2 smpy bunyi dengkuran farahin pon xdengar..hihihi..tapi saya xdapat tidor jugak..sebab beban rindu neh terlalu kuat..kadang2 saya terpikir kenapalah saya paksa dia cari kerja..bila tgk sendiri macam mana dia usaha nak crai kerja, kesiannya kat dia...dapat untung xseberapa..tapi ari2 buzy dan leteh dan xda masa utuk saya..saya cuba untuk memahami..tapi saya xdapat menfikan kinginan hati saya nak dengar suara dia malam2 sampai saya tertido..tapi seperti yang saya sedia maklum.,idop bkan macam sedia kala..normal sekarang bukan lagi normal macam dulu..saya terpaksa menghadapi perubahan environment yg agak drastik..sy xmahu kembali kepada diri sy yang lama dahulu, di mana saya malas, xda hati nak buat apa2 pon..maybe sebab xda semangat, bila Tuhan beri pelangi pada saya..baru saya rasa benafas,,baru saya tahu buat kerja, baru saya tahu nak layan sume orang dengan baek..tapi satu hal yang saya xsedar..saya xmenghargai pelangi saya dengan baek..mungkin kerana dia terlalu baek..hingga sy xboley nampak sedikit kesalahan dia..tapi itu suma dulu..skarang sy kena bisakan diri idop tanpa dia di sisi menemani saya..tapi hati saya sakit..saya xtau knapa saya mampu sekuat itu..saya xmampu mencoba pon,,,,knapa saya perlukan dye..knapa sy xboley jadi kuat macam orang laen..YA ALLAH jangan lah tinggalkan kakngah..kakngah sangat lemah tanpa sesiapa di sisi..jiwa kakngh rapuh YA ALLAH..:(

forever alone

sunyi dan sedey..kehidupan tidak  seperti sedia kala..tapi kehidupan menjadi seperti dulu..dulu yang tidak didukai..dulu yang menjadi mimpi ngeri.. saya fikir pelangi yang saya dapat dalam 2 tahon neh akan kekal..tapi nampaknya dia semakin pudar dibawa hujan dan panas..saya mula mengejar pelangi itu..tapi dye seakan2 tidak mengerti dan terus pergi jauh dari saya..rupa2 nya pelangi ini tidak seindah dulu..mungkin saya patot mengerti..indah itu memang ahnya sementara..tapi sy sudah hidop slama 2 tahon bersama pelangi itu..saya mahukan nya kembali..saya xdapat bertahan tanpa pelangi..sy mersa keseorangan..tapi pelangi saya juga tidak berdaya menjaga saya seperti dulu..dia banyak tanggungjawab terhadap orang laen..tanggungjawab yang lebih hakiki..tanggungjawab yang akan dipersoalkan Tuhan bila di akhirat nanti..sy mohon tuhan satukan kami dengan hubungan yang halal..saya mahu dia di sisi saya sepanjang hayat..saya harap dia sentiasa mendpat barkah dan rezeki juga kegembiraan.
 mungkin hari2 mendatang saya tidak akan gembira seperti dahulu..tapi saya mohon Tuhan kuatkan saya untuk setaon neh..saya berharap saya dapat menmpuh setaon neh dengan kuat dan kuat..hindari lah saya dari rasa malas,murung dan keseorangan..beri saya akal fikiran dan kegembiraan untuk membuat semua kerja saya dengan tekun dan amanah..saya tiada siapa2 di sisi untuk menemani..saya pohon Tuhan sentiasa ada di sisi saya untuk beri kekuatan kepada saya dan si dia..AMIN

happy nyee..

yeaaa..walaupon sedih,tp happy sebb tgok pic nih
..gembira nya pon ada ter ber... makaceh sbb menghargai nya pon ada ter ber bapak punya my hadiah
sayang awk .. =)

jauh di mata,jauh d hati

    walaupun sudah lama bersama,tp aku saja yg slalu di persalahkan,tp kadang2 si dia pon aku salahkan juga,hihihi.. tp adakah mmg aku adalah punca yg buatkan our relationship always hard. aku x tau apa yg kena aku wat . tp,se hard mana pon,aku akan cuba bertahan sbb aku sygkan perhubungan yg telah aku (dan si dia juga =0 )bina...

       Perasaan ni aku rasa adalah benda penting,jd kita berdua harus la jaga satu sama... meme la muka aku x sehensem hero citer city hunter,tp nak wat camner,tuhan dh bg... meme la aku x se bad boy macm org laen, tu maybe  aku org kampung kot...( ala,mcm lagu jimi palikat tuh) and aku pon x style mcm org lain... kadang2 aku dh cuba jd mcm apa si dia suka,tp dia mcm x prasan je(kadang2 aku siap bagitau)...haih.. aku bukan x kompiden tp klu aku yakin,mesti sesuatu keyakinanku itu akan musnah.. mmg la kata org, org laki mana jeles,org pompuan je.. tp maybe aku org pompuan kot,sbb tu aku kuat jeles.. tp,pls try la pujuk saye( walaupon awak x mampu sbb sy ngade2)... sy ni kan manja..hikhik..
     sy pn tau awk cinta n syg sy..tp kadang2 sy mmg nk majok utk tarik perhatian awk..wwuaaaa,sedey nya sambil taip nih... yea.luv if something complicated.. like u say,if u scare that u cannot hold until the end,i will help u hold.. but if dun want    
accept my hand to help.. i still luv u syg... (sedey~~) if ur down... sory for being not perfect for u,..
the end..

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pain

sakit hati,geram,marah,kecewa,sedih,xpus hati,tertekan, sume perasaan bercampur baur..xkeruan jadinye..xtau nk lepas kat sape..ase nk pergi satu tempat jauh2..duk sorang2..tenangkan diri..sebab ase kosong sgt..benci pon ade..nak type kat blog neh pon asyik silap aje..nampak sgt da kena makan ubat..da tahap kronik da neh..xlama neh migrain la aku..hurmmm ;'/

bertabahlah..

sy xde org yang ley saya mengadu bile perlu,,dan saya adalah manusia yg rugi tidak dapat mencari seorang sahabat pon...;(..tapi xpe..kalau sy xrase sume neh..saya xakan matang..be positive thinking..saya boleh hidop sendiri.!!.xpe..suatu hari nanti Allah pasti akan temukan sy dgn orang yang betol..;')

tido dulu

tido dulu.tenangkan fikiran dulu,nanti bangun wat slide ye cik amalieya yg comel ;D

berpijak pada realiti

bulan 7 neh genap 22 tahun..i have become more mature girl than before.i can feel it.Alhamdulillah.thanks you Allah. bila da matured neh, kita harus lebih realistik dengan masa hadapan.perlu bertegas dengan diri sendiri..u need to carry on ur life independent.. he's not here with me..he is busy ;(

i am sorry

actually sy xnak susahkan si dia..sy tau dia banyak keja..sy yang kena paham..kalau boley saya xnak pon jumpa dia..tpi xtau la..knapa sy lemah sgt..ape yg sy tau sy perlukan dia..rasa macam xkeruan..seriusly igt boley jumpa dia..pilunye bile harapan xtercapai..hanya air mata yang menemani di sisi..i just need to fixed myself so that im not too depend on him about everything..coz i have to accept.he is not angel that can alway be  there when i need him..i just need to go on with my life..even it is painful..

it is ok

it is ok when people try ditch u when u r weak, even the most kind person will ignore u..only Allah that really here besides u..the ONE that give u strength and help even when i am weak..even when i face lots of trouble, at the end i can manage to handle that...Alhamdulillah thank you Allah for alway be with me even i am a bad person..;') i will be strong..help me Ya ALLAH..

berangan berlebey2..habuk pon tarak

punye la bersiap..xnak pesan makan sebab nak jumpa si dia..perasan yg dia nk datang jumpa kita..alih2 makan atii sorang2..dugaan di bulan rejab..xley makan,tido pub jadila...at least im done with crucial moment presenattion and test..wohooo...just another two presentation..uhhhh..need to face people i hate again..1 year more..cant waittt >._<

YA ALLAH kuatkan kakngah..bantu lah aku yang sentiasa lupa dan lalai

aku pernah dengar satu kata2 mutiara mengatakan..orang yang paling malang adalah orang yang tidak boley mencari walau seorang sahabat..buat masa ini...aku ase aku la manusia malang tuh..hurm..bila dah besar dan terdedah kepada dunia luar, lagi banyak dugaan yang..mungkin Tuhan turunkan ujian sebab nak cuci dosa kita yang terlampau banyak..salah kakngah sendiri..sesungguhnya penderitaan ini xtahu ada penghujungnya atau tidak..aku hanya mampu berserah,,aku hanya manusia yang lemah..xboley ke dorang layan aku normal je..i hate going to class n meet the same person everyday but din give any feeling good me,futhermore make me sad and lonely..im not their friend,im just their classmate.so snobbish look at me like u r the princess and diva..hate to be in that place..really wana that kind 0f life end..i wana meet my family..i hope they still luv me..it just like i din know how to live and capture people heart anymore.it just like verything that interested in me is gone.dissapear. theres nothing left for me.is that because of myself??
i dunno..hurmmm
i need spirit.spirit that make me stronger even the thousand people hate n against me.i need that spirit badly.i dun wana be  weak person.i wana be a strong person!!n move a head without give a glimpse the back!!yeah!!!1..i wana that spirit..save me YA ALLAH  :(

bw sttrong

“You must be strong now. You must never give up. And when people make you cry and you are afraid of the dark, don't forget the light is always there.”

Ya Allah

ari2 xde mood..semangat asyik ilang..Tuhan beri aku petunjuk dan kekuatan..selamat kan lah aku dari kelemahan diri ku sendiri dan kejahatan manusia yg laen

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everything u do effect me so heavily that i could stand along..i wish that..i dunno...

yawwwww

if u wana move on do it urself..nobody can help to change ur life,even ur beloved one!!!!!!!!!so make it easy for u!!!!!

i want you...

i just need ur attention..so i will do anything..so that u will notice me..

nobody can help me

struggle to fight myself, my desire, my stupid behaviour, my bad attitude..i hate myself so much..i even cant manage to handle myself..n i couldnt help myself..
dunno what shud i do in midterm..seems like everyone is sleep..n i had no time to study..bcos i wasting my time so much..and tomoro i got two lab,,n obviously i had no time to understang all the topic..especially the subject thaT really i dun like..i just feel like i wana move on..GOD plis help me..:(...i am sori for everything..im a bad2 girl...

no one can save me..no one

feel like im dying..struggle for nothing..

Try to figure out why you are bored:

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   • Are you doing something that you have done many times before? Try adding something new or doing it a different way. If that just doesn't cut it, stop doing the same thing over and over again. Obviously, if repetitive tasks are a part of your occupation, then you may, unfortunately, have no choice but to stick it.
   • Are you feeling lazy, tired, or unmotivated? A nap can rejuvenate you and it can be surprising how much more motivated you can feel after a quick snooze. Alternatively, breathing in the fresh air outside for just ten minutes can freshen up your mindset, and the space and (maybe) sunshine can do wonders for your mood.
   • Are you rested yet still feeling lazy? Try to convince yourself to do just one small thing: something small or short in duration or just part of a task. Taking baby steps towards a goal can give you a sense of accomplishment that will beat any boredom.
   • Are you bored because you feel you can't do the things you want to do? This can be a very irritating situation to be in, because the only thing stopping you from completing a task or having some fun is the lack of materials or perhaps expertise. Try to think of alternative ways to do what you want to do, working with what you have available.
   • Are you bored because you can't think of anything to do? Do something physically or socially active. Doing some exercise can get you into a better frame of mind, as well as the added bonus of keeping you in shape. Social activity (i.e. talking to someone) fulfils one of our basic human needs. Face-to-face contact is, if possible, much better than talking over the phone or Facebook.
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   Try to do something totally new and learn from it. New situations and actions will activate your brain, allowing it to exercise its learning powers.
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   Try to be active with an interesting group of people. These can be your regular friends, or perhaps you could join a new group of people interested in similar things to you.
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   Break out of your routine. While it is important to have structure in your life, occasionally doing something radically different, or at an unusual time, can be invigorating. You need to pay attention to your thoughts and daily activities and find ways not to submit yourself to drudgery and taking things for granted.
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   Change your thoughts. Your thoughts affect your behaviour and mood. By changing your mind about the meaning of your emotion and experiences, you will generate a different attitude. Get inspired with powerful long-range goals. Powerful goals keep you inspired. You can't feel bored at the same time when you are motivated to build a life.
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   Fire up your imagination. Create mental images to stimulate your thoughts. Visualize where you want to be and what you want to become. Use your imagination to experience a situation that you want to happen in your life. The wonderful thing about imagination is that you can create anything you wish to experience.
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   Talk to other people. If the person next to you is looking as bored as you are, strike up a conversation! Or call a friend and ask if they want to come over for a natter or a game of something. If you have an interesting, thought-provoking person to talk to, the time can pass by pretty quick. You might also learn something.
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   Be active! Go for a walk or do something physically outrageous. Write down 10 things you can do and 10 you can't yet. Work through them whenever you're bored.
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   Create curiosity. Create your curiosity on what's happening around and inside you. You find life boring because of the repetition or a pattern of some habits or activities. Try to look at and do them differently and get yourself fascinated with other options and possibilities.
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    Find, read, hear, watch or do something exciting, stimulating and entertaining. You will probably be more fulfilled if you learn something: mindless media can be absorbing but ultimately not at all stimulating.
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    Find a new hobby, such as hiking, knitting, drawing, playing an instrument, Board games, Cards, Cycling, cooking or photography. If you are particularly good at one skill, you could teach others to do it, and be helping others as well as avoiding boredom.
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    Avoid boring people and situations. Get away from people and situations that bore you. You can't just walk out of a relationship but you can give yourself some space to do things that interest and motivate you.
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    Start a life list and accomplish a new thing every day, or week.
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    Try some of these ideas:
    • Volunteer at your local hospital or elderly home. This can give you a great feeling of satisfaction in helping other people.
    • Work for money. Ask for jobs to do around the house for money or even start a business like mowing people's lawns or pet sitting. Pretty soon all that money will add up and you can buy something new that will keep you entertained.
    • Practice sports by yourself or with friends. You won't be bored anymore and you'll be able to show off your skills next game and feel proud of what you accomplished.
    • Take out your bike/skateboard/roller skates/scooter and get some exercise. Call up a friend and see if they want to come with you.
    • Walk to the mall and pay attention to the people there; what could they be thinking about? Who could they be talking to? What kind of people are they?
    • Bake something. Then you get to eat it afterwards!
    • Catch up on any homework or that you might still have to do. While this can seem like the last thing you want to do, it could be just the thing to get your brain whirring.
    • Rent some movies or listen to some music. But don't get holed up indoors. Watch a movie you haven't seen in a long time. Does it seem different now?
    • Journal your feelings and thoughts, either privately or on a blog. One of the ways to become aware of what triggers your boredom is to question yourself and take a hard look at it. Observe and write down your feelings and thoughts for a week and at the end of it, reflect on them. You could also start a blog online, if you feel that sharing your thoughts with other people could be beneficial.
    • Read and contribute to wikiHow. You might be surprised by how much you enjoy using your skills to inform other people. Or it might bore you even more: you won't know until you try!
    • Reminisce about the good summers you used to have. You can write a novel about it. Be careful not to become overly nostalgic, however.
    • Get your friends round and play something like a board game you haven't play with in a while or build something out of LEGO. If you haven't had any child-like fun for a while, here's your chance!
    • If you have something that you don't need, sell it! That way, you can use the money that you earned to buy yourself something that will entertain you.
    • Think of places you would like to visit, and why. Then, if possible, visit them and see if they live up to your expectations!
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    Learn and practice mindfulness meditation. You suddenly become bored - impatient and restless. At this point, become aware of your feelings. Pay attention to the physical symptoms of your restlessness.
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    Explore the world and your mind. When boredom has been overcome, your mind will find many ways to keep your mind occupied. Reduced reported levels of boredom were considered reliable indicators of whether treated drug addicts would stay clean. Long distance drivers, who reported little boredom, played mental games, such as counting of passing objects. They were also safer drivers. Just self awareness can set you free. A freed mind can develop new skills and hobbies. Freed from boredom, your own pattern sensing mechanisms will find joy in the beauty of the world around you.

lululu

Remember, boredom is only a mindset, keep your mind occupied with something to do.

lalala

life is all about making things happen.

if you find life soo boring then make it more interestng.

you cant get results if you dont try.

boring?

An active person makes things; 
a passive person waits for things to be made. 
An active person works, plays, walks, run, dance, travel, speak, love, laugh, cry. 
A passive person doesn’t do anything; just damning that boring empty life.

kekecewaan membuatkan kita tersedar

seenarnya kesenangan yang kita dapat melalaikan kita..dan kita perlu diuji untuk tersedar dari lamunan dan angan2 kosong yang tiada masa depan..kita perlu merasai perit sesuatu ujian..jadi kita akan lebih berwaspada dan bertanggungjawab..kalau kita sentiasa di tempat yang selesa..kita tidak akan pernah berubah..namun kadang2 ujian yang datang terlalu perit..moga Tuhan melindungi aku dari musibah yang xmampu aku tanggung..dan semoga perangai aku tidak menyakiti hati orang yang aku sayang..bantulah aku ya ALLAh..:(

sedey

rini aku xpegi kelas..sbb aku letey dan mengantok..pastuh aku jadi bengang sgt..tapi aku pon x pegi kelas yg ke2..bodoh betol..seyesly aku ase bodoh sgt..aku makin ari makin terok..aku benci diri aku..aku benci budak kelas aku..dorg sume rajen2..benci sbb aku xley jadi mcm dorg..rajen dtg kelas dan dapat pointer tinggi..

please discover urself..wake up!!

Did you look under behavior?
As a student you need to be consistent, to do the assignments given and be prepared for class, ready to answer questions if called upon.
The best way to do that is to establish good study habits: find out if you are a person who learns by writing notes, listening or reading over and over.
follow the method that is best for you.
Set aside time when you are not tired and are receptive to remembering the work you are studying without interruptions or loud noise or music. Read ahead so you can anticipate items that need clarification when they are taught to the class for the first time.
Write homework, then edit for spelling errors, poor or hurried writing, incorrect information, then rewrite a final draft. Using this method intensifies the learning process.

kau x pAham

kau neh xpaham betol..bila org xde mood ko xpayah la nak nasihat dye pum pang2...org lau emosi xstabil,suh masak nasi pon dye xreti!!! paham?!

oh my

kadang2 kita xperlu untuk bertungkus lumus untuk dapat apa yg kita nak,mungkit kita perlu muhasabah,tenangkan diri,dan cari ape yg terbaek untuk kita, lapangkan dada..

dengan hanya sekali gagal bukan bermaksud kita gagal..cuba cari jalan penyelesaian..yang penting daya emosi kena kuat..agar dapat tabah harungi hal2 yang mendatang...cari inisiatif untuk jalan penyelesaian..semoga berjaya syg..u know whats the best forn for the firt place..than ask some help if u need them..before that..cheer urself up!! ;)

sedey ;(

bila ape yg kita usahakan xmenjadi, kita akan rase sgt sedey dan kecewa. dan ape yg kita perlukan hanyalah seorg pendgr yang dapat mendengar luahan hati..tapi kdg2 si pendengar ni pon sibuk nak bercakap jugak..ahhhh xtau la haku..hurmmm..sedey..aku cuma nak melepaskan perasaan sebentar..;( salah ke kalau aku ase sedey..dye cakap senang ar..dye dapat elok je...