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saya da xada masa..dia plak nak pergi jauh dari saya pada masa yg sangat2 penting....entah lahhh...saya xtau nak rasa apa...i just cant let him go..and i just keep being a litttle bit dissapointed with him..i have no heart to tell him..there s no point..but i need him to know bout my pain..but i couldnt tell him..it hurt me so much..why i am depending on him..i need to stop depending n him..but without him..i become useles like in matric time...i hate that life..i dun wana go back to that time..i am miserable..ALLAH help me..i am sorry...i am sorry