mimpi

semalam aku mimpi..aku mimpi apis datang lawat aku sebab dye rindu dekat aku..macam dulu2..asal rindu je..dye mesti ada depan mata,,kadang2 xharap pon dye datang..tapi dye datang jugak..katanye rindu..:)..pastu teman dye makan kat pokok tui..pekerja kat situ pon da kenal kitorang..makan favorit pon dorang da ingt..hehe..tapi bila bangun2..dye xde pon..patot la..mimpi upenye..

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kesedihan..

di saat neh..aku sgt memerlukan seseorang di sisi aku untuk aku bagitau aku..yg aku kena kuat, aku xboley lemah..aku boley buat semua tuh..tapi aku nak ada satu tgn yang boley pegang aku n comfortkan aku..supaay aku xterjatuh dalam kealpaan sendiri..dan terkapai2 dalam bayangan sendiri.. dan aku takkan sunyi walaupon aku xde sape2 dgn orang sekeliling..tapi nampaknya harapan hanya tinggak harapan..dan hanya bayang2 aku sahaja yg menemani setiap masa.

nak tido

banyak menda nak cita..tapi aku ase baek aku tido je..tido adalah pengubat segalanya..syukur masih diberi nikmat tidor,ada katil dan batal empuk dan kesenangan hingga hari..hargai masa yang ada..hargai masa sekarang..sekurang2 nya kau masih bernafas dan idop secara normal macam orang laing..demand more? put ur effort more to gain life u want..may god bless me n all my beloved peoples..:)..

you

besnye bercuti bersama dye..hepi sgt..tapi hepi sgt jugak bermaksud..yang aku akan bersedih jugak..;(
if we are married..i will always stay with him..being his wife..wake up in the morning and the first thing i saw when open my eyes is him my lovely treasure and precious husband..hafis irzuan..:D being mother of his lovely and cute childrens..prepare breakfast for him before he get work..get a kiss from him before and after he get wotk..;')..owh..if they were true..live happily with person i love..:(..can i achieve that dream..can i..bcos rite now..all i think is him...nothing else..im hurt so much..it is so hard to adapt my new situation.. i try not to think about it..but it seem did not work out properly..:(..but what's more painful is i cant tell him whats on my mind rite now..bcos he is surely not hepi if he knows that im not in a good condition rite now..i only will make him sad and disappointed with him..previouly i oredi make him pressure with my irritating behaviour..;(..i did not want to make him worry about me..i just wanna full attention from him..thats all i need in my life..how demand i am rite....am i too much..?? may we can become a husband wife forever till heaven  ;')..AMINNN..i miss u sayang..;')..i miss u so much...i miss u..i miss u..i  miss u..i miss u till death...miss u.....

helpless me

tahun 4 merupakan tahun yang susah bagi aku..susah bagi ak maksudnya..aku idop skang neh tanpa dia di sisi..sume salah aku sebab xkasi dye sambung master..aku sedey sgt..dulu boley dikatakan ari2 aku jumpa dye..tapi skang neh..seminggu skali..aku tau aku neh mengada2,aku patot bersyukur sebab masih boley jumpa dye hingga ari ini..tapi idop aku sunyi..aku ase down sgt2 setiap kali kami nak berpisah..seperti sebahagian dari diri aku pergi bersamanya..terase jiwa sgt kosong..aku xberdaya nak wat ape2 keje tanpa dia di sisi..dye seperti cengkerang aku,..tempat aku bergantung idop..aku wat ape2 aje mesti dia ada..time aku malas..dye yang kalut suh aku studi..time aku susah..dia la yg banyak tolong aku..time aku sedey dia pujuk aku sampy bermati2 matian..lau aku ilang semangat..dia akan kuatkan aku smpy aku bangkit...tapi skang..aku xley berharap seperti dulu yg dia ada untuk aku..sume kerja kena wat sendiri..bila da bersendiri neh..baru aku tau betapa lumpuhnya aku tanpa dia..aku xmampu buat apa2 tanpa dia..betapa dia adalah matahri aku..;(.. kadang bila aku perlukan dia n dia xada..aku ase nak marah sgt..tapi aku xtau nak marah kat sape..lepas tuh sume kerja x terhandle..everything become worse..my attitude, my behaviour, my emotion, myself.. my hearts sure ly miss him badly..im scared of future..what circumstance i will face..;(..im scared of myself too..

HAK ALLAH

Rasulullah saw bersabda :

Barangsiapa yang bangun di pagi hari dan hanya DUNIA yg di fikirkannya, sehingga seolah-olah ia tidak melihat Hak Allah dalam dirinya, maka Allah akan menanamkan 4 macam penyakit padanya:

1. KEBINGUNGAN yang tiada putus-putusnya.
2. KESIBUKAN yang tidak pernah jelas akhirnya.
3. KEPERLUAN yang tidak pernah merasa dipenuhi.
4. KHAYALAN yang tidak berujung wujudnya.

[Hadis Riwayat Muslim]

be content with ur self and stop being lost! :)

Be content with yourself. Love yourself for the person you are, no matter if you are lonely. The world has room for a diversity of personalities.
Put some fun into your life by going to games at school, walking through a park, checking out a museum, and so on. However, try reaching out by doing fun things with another person or group rather than doing them alone. What interests or hobbies do you have that could be done with others? Check out the local clubs to see if one would interest you.
Stop being so lost in thoughts, instead look around and see what's happening. Notice people and the environment,live in the moment, and stop worrying about being lonely.
Make some friends, one at a time. You can start by saying hi to a person in school or wherever else you find people, and the next day you make a conversation. Do this with several people over a period of time. Learn and use their name after meeting someone.
Think more about others and not so much about yourself. This is often tough to do, but extending your interest to other people will help channel your thoughts away from your loneliness.
Volunteer. Look for areas where you could help an individual or a group after school or during other free time. By helping others, you will keep busy and get your mind off yourself. Plus, by being with others, you are able to establish friendships.